Who am I ??

Hey you.. today I weight less than a shadow on the wall. My hard mind is like a terrible freak teenager. I don´t know my priorities, I don´t know what I want to do about my so desired career. One of my biggest happiness have been watch some american tv series, when I imagine that I am in the other side of the tv... another country with honesty, cool and compreensive friends, enjoyable go outs, wonderful experiences for each 5 minutes. Maybe I´m gonna be mad, or I need something that I don´t know yet. "I want love, but is impossible. A man like me so irresponsible, a man like me is dead when others feel liberated! " Oh my god, why could I be seth cohen or, Ryan, or John Carter, or Dowson if I don´t know who I am and who I want be?